So I haven’t posted anything since my first blog and I have about three saved ones. Sad stuff.
Everytime I try to write there is so much in my head that I get too lazy to sort it out and try to make sense in a legible blog that people would read. And though I was determined to write today even if I had to write about having “nothing to write about” I decided that would be really lame. There are thousands of adventures each day and that would be just flat out lame.
Something that stands out to me is how much I enjoyed this day and I can barely remember the annoying parts of it all. Well, if I make an effort I am sure I can come up with something pretty heart felt but I don’t want to anyway. The night was great. After work I called Chris’ aunt Beth to figure out her christmas gift because I have her name for the exchange. Then I rushed to the shower and told my mom and brother, Julian, that Chris was taking me out to dinner just for a special night since school starts tomorrow for me and it’ll be crazy. My brother is like:
“you gotta dress up!”
Well, I took a five minutes shower and run off to dry my hair (it takes a looong time!) and figured out that my brother had fallen asleep so there was no point in modeling my summer dress gone fall attire and I was running late. Go figure.
Once I was at the restaurant I loved being with Chris. There were a bunch of people here and there but it was such an intimate time since it was just him and I…and the two year old girl dancing on the little open space. Hilarious stuff! super sweet! hahaha
I loved just feeling the strength of his eyes on me and the silent pause he made. When he finally closed his mouth he said:
“you look amazing”
I felt myself blushing. You wouldn’t be able to tell since I am brown but I was a little embarrassed. I wanted to change the subject as to remove the attention from me. But I do like the attention. Just not so much when it seems like the entire restaurant pauses, his jaw drops, and his eyes take this sweet look to it and after half a minute he manages to utter a sweet compliment. Well, yes I like it. But is weird. I am not good at taking compliments all that much. Dang I should take showers more often!
kidding.
I do shower everyday! hahaha
Anyway, dinner was delightful and we had tons of little conversations, very good conversations, of all kinds and with different purposes. I just fell in love with him more. Then we drove to my house.
He had to pick up Guillermo from the gym and give him a ride home and I decided to stop by Target and get high socks. I found a man trying to put together a good outfit but was lost and the employee girls were laughing at him. He asked them for help and they weren’t very nice. It enraged me so I came up and asked if I could help. I told him to not mix up patterns and textures like such and such… Then he asked:
“Are you a fashion advicer?”
“No, I just have two brothers and a boyfriend.”
Again, I wasn’t sure how to handle such a sincere compliment so I digressed and finally got the full attention off me. We laughed and exchanged thank yous and your welcomes. It was nice to make him feel good about himself and let him roam around the section with dignity. I had no respect for the employees at that moment but he was thankful I complimented his dorky sense of fashion and directed him a little in what would look good. I trust that if he goes with it he’ll still be himself and look good, professional, and confident and even a little trendy why not 
Once I got home Chris passed me his phone after his long conversation with his mother and I got to talk to her and ask what she wanted for christmas. This lady has all she wants and needs, at least to her expectations for the most part. It is hard to narrow down what she would appreciate as a gift. Once she returned the question she exclaimed:
“hey! we got much more in common than I thought!”
That was nice to hear from her!
So anyway, Chris and I watched NCIS; just one episode. We got two left to be done with season one.
I love watching tv with him. He is nice to hug and smells really good all the time. He’s very manly all around and totally sweet. I can’t believe, well this is just a saying, that God blessed me in such way with what I really really wanted in a man!
His breath smells really good and all I wanted to do was to kiss him big time but I had to hold myself down. There was a ton of interdigitation happening and it just made me very happy
After the episode was over the dreaded words came down and plumetted in my heart:
“I have to go now”
I hate it when he leaves. It makes me sooo sad!
Anyway, I wanted to play the poutty face so I dare say:
“do you not like me anymore?”
“I love you. And that is why I have to leave before I step over boundaries and compromise in purity.”
No comment.
Well, of course I’ll comment in that!
This guy is my hero! I just love him so much. Even though it is the hardest thing to let go at the end of the night I just respect him so much that I gladly will submit to his authority one day. Needless to say after that response he was a thousand time hotter in my eyes and I just wanted to say goodbye with the biggest passionate kiss ever. But I just crossed my arms and commanded him to careful and drive extra safe. Yes, I said it in that order. Anyway, he got the point.
So yeah, it happens that the more my boyfriend loves Christ and follows his commands the hotter he becomes to me and then the more I trust him which in turn I love him much more.
I am so thankful for him and for the night he put together for me. We even hanged out with my brother and it was fun. I feel so special.
Tomorrow school starts and I will be crazy focused on it. I want to feel the satisfaction of a 4.0 GPA again after so long. I pray God will help me through it.
IamsoinlovewithJesus!!!!! (me squaling like a girl! hahaha)
